I don't care.

晶晶说留一点尊严给自己
她说的很对。
其实没有你，生活一样要过下去。
老天把你从我身边拿走，以后我一定得到更好的。
我以后再也不会那么笨。
不会再为男生而流泪。
怎样说都成经爱过，疼过。
就算分了，我也希望你会活得更加好，没有我日子依然能过得好。
我不会怪你就因为你骂我，敷衍我。
我懂你很讨厌我。
讨厌人有什么用？
到头来自己累而已。
我不懂你受过了什么刺激，搞到你根本不像你自己，或许还是我不够了解你吧，或许这就是你。
我现在还是放不下，但我也不会想要挽回了。
你行动证明了一切·。
Facebook已经很够力明显了！
我也有我的脾气而且比你还暴躁比你还坏！
你又不是不懂我的脾气，我只是不想惹事，不像你的形象在我心目中破裂。
可是你的所做所为却令我觉得你很幼稚！
很无理取闹！
很不可理喻！
我从来没有想到你是哪种办龙是非的人。
我实在是太累了。
为了你傻傻的发白热梦？
想念你就哭泣？
担心你是否会离我而去？
担心你是否会看上别的女生？
担心你是否还会像以前一样爱我疼我？
你真的变了吗？
我不懂。
还是这就是你？
我也不懂。
TOLONGLAH!
I'm fucking sick and tired of this shit!
又时我还是会想回以前的事。
可是都是我们的美好回忆。
都剩下回忆。
回忆总有一天会消失。
sadness is only for now, boy.
或许我只是一时不能适应没有你的生活。
我相信时间会冲淡一切。
是我的就是我的，不是我的就不是我的。
我已经不相信爱情了。
有多甜蜜？
有多恩爱？
又怎样？
到头来结果又如何？
被人耍到团团转？
分手下场？
恋人变仇人的下场？
你唱我我唱你的下场？
好笑！
分了就分了啦！
又不是分不起！
就潇洒一点吧。
不需要在别人背后加盐加粗说人家的坏话。
你也是半径八两而已啦。
就彼此彼此啦，资粮一点。
为了你堕落，为了你伤心难过，为了你茶饭不思，为了你哭泣。
你懂吗？
哼！
你懒知！
最近身边的人都遇到这类型的问题。
烦！很烦！
做么像传染病一样？
一个传一个。
闲！=.=
闷！ 
被人追求的滋味很爽吗？好玩吗？
现在一点都不爽，一点都不好玩！
追又怎样？
我真的很累了。
怕再次受伤。
人生短暂，经不起伤害。
好不容易摆脱了一个另一个又来。
每次都是一样的下场。
分手！
哼！
很闲啊听到这句话。
=.=
我现在一时一样。
一时好一时坏。
好的时候，下口常开。
坏的时候，笑起来都觉得很虚假。
脑里那里计时炸弹，几时才会爆炸？
爆了更加好。
死了就不用那么烦！
以前那个单纯，幼稚，开朗的我都消失了。
以前微笑对我来说只是小事一个。
现在的我，笑一个都很难。
我生活里只有做人不恨人家就会欺负你。
我的微笑有时就只是在敷衍人。
可是也不可否认有开心的时候。
现在的我跟以前真的不一样了。
我也不懂我自己变成什么样了。
很酷？很冷？佷串？
我全都听过了。
计时炸弹快点爆炸！
快！快！快！






这首是当粗他离开我的时候，你的心情。
还记得吗？
Wedding Dress


im living through life without you , and babe it aint the same
the way that things played , i wish that you were still with me
but see life goes on and i just cant keep on waiting
still debating , whether me dating will conclude this pain

uh but i quickly think back , i gotta get my chick back
i really cant just pull-back cause truth is that i got it badsome things just hurt to say , never shouldve had ended up this way
lifes hard just roll with the punches even if shes on your mind day by day , yeeah.



Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door
You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control ♥♥♥ 
Even though weve grown apart
My brain cant seem to let you go
Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight
I guess its too late, Im dancing this dance alone ♥♥♥
This chapters done, the story goes on



Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress



girl can you tell me what happened, you know my love i showed it
but you smashed my heart into fragments, now im stuck, forced to forget about moments
we had in the past, i dont even know how long this will last
the road ahead wasnt rough but we crashed, the flame that had sparked us turned to ash

yeah, but i dont look back, i just crack jokes so you wont notice what im hidin'cuz even if you with him, the inflicted pain goes away when i see you smilin'
uh, i tried to take slow, but i ended up alone
i shouldve known better but my eyes didnt open till the point that i just realized you were gone

excuse me miss you got me goin crazy, dont know what
im suppose to do, if i could i'd tell you i love you but
damn, i guess its too late, im dancing this dance alone
and as the curtains closed i had no choice girl but to let you go



Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress



been a couple years but i still feel love , never got it back , got pushed and shoved
what happend ? lost in the mail ? all i really needed was a couple real hugs
but girl your gone , and i gotta face facts , you and i , itll never come back
im tired of running , i gotta stand still , i gotta get my life back, back on track
shit goes down and you gotta move on , i still love her but she moved on
kills to see her with her new man , i dont get what cracked our unbreakable bondthis is just my perspective , if you want more, you can play detective
what went wrong , why things ended , why this happend why love bended
i hope things happend for a reason , wake up every morning heavily breathing
sun shinning but i still feel cold , all i see is the door and her footsteps leaving
understand its been you from the start , lifes different your the missing part
i just wish i could turn back time , cause it hurts being left with a broken heart


Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress

我们只是擦肩而过？

我们只是擦肩而过？
This song reminds me of you
When I broke up with TW.......
You conforted me like Sam Lee in the song day and night.
How I wish everything would turn back in time.
It's too late now.
I guessed I'll just have those memory stick up in my head.
I don't want to leave this world with regrets.
Idk when I'm leaving I guess it will be soon, very soon.
The bomb in my head is taking my everything.
I am on my own now.
Struggling through electric shocks, those effin pain, tortures.
How pain could that be?
No one knows.

질식

Everything got worse.

I cannot control my emotions anymore. 

My brain hurts.

My head aches.

I don't know what to do to stop the pain.

Operation?

Cries and laughter.

Cry for a while.

Laugh for a while.
Those videos & pictures of you remain silently in my laptop.
I keep playing those videos of you.
I cried then.

Everytime I pass by a pet shop I saw goldfish, I thought of you. 

The goldfish you said you will buy me still remains as a memory.
Although you did not buy me one but there is one living in my memory.

A trip to sunway pyramid reminds me of you.

The place where we first hold hands.

Your face got red, you look cute.

On that time, my heartbeat races.

I watched Step Up 3 with you. 

You hugged me, I felt happy.

Felt secure in your arms.
I fall asleep smiling.
How I wish time would just stop right on that moment.
Just me & you.

The song Club Can't Handle Me, This Girl keep playing in my mind.

Whatcha You Waiting For is our first love song

I heard it when our birthday is around the corner.

It's your birthday so tell me what you wanna do

It's my birthday I really wanna get with you

Drop the beat now and baby we can get it started

Whatsoever you did to me,

Whatsoever you scolded me,

Those vulgars you said to me,

Doesn't affect my love to you.

But it hurts me.

How come you turn into a stranger that I don't even know.
I have no idea what is going on with you.
The old you seems to fade away from reality.
Where are you?

You become such a perfect nightmare, that haunts me day & night.
When I woke up, when I went to bed
Those reflection I saw in the mirror is you
My brain can't seem to get a clear picture of you anymore.
I don't want this to happen.
I don't want to forget you yet.

I still couldn't let go.

Everyone ask me to forget you.
They say you're such a bastard.

I CAN'T

You mean a lot to me.
Too much love kills.

Although, it passed already.

I can only watch you from far away.
I hope I get to see you longer.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow.

I guess I'll just watch you day by day as long as I can watch you around healthy & happy

Can see cannot touch maybe cannot even see. 

Cause you hate me.

DEAD!

I'm DEAD!

Feelingless.

I don't even know myself anymore.

I'm fading.

I'm lost.

X.x

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I felt empty.

I felt lonely.

BUT

I got used to it then.

Sometimes, I thought of you.

BUT 

All left is hurt.

Only hurt.

Those sweet memories still sticks in my brain.

Why do you treat me like this?

I couldn't bear the pain.

I'm suffering, suffocating cause of my head.

You will never know what the fuck, what's fucking wrong in my brain.

Do you know how pain it is?

Trying to forget someone you know for a long time is the same trying to forget someone you never knew.

"Shes got a love like woe
Girls got a love like woe
I kinda feel like it dont make sense
Because you're bringing me in
and now you're kicking me out again
Loved so strong, then you moved on
Now I'm hung up in suspense,
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again"

I gotta thank you cause you end all those unecessary pain, suffering in me.

I don't need to miss you like a fool.

Never suffer.

Never regret.

Never going to be a fool again. 

Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I'm walkin' out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That's my way
I gave it my all, so I don't have regrets

Pretending like you're more sad
Pretending you're cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain't shit without your crew
I don't have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don't want to see your ugly face again no more. 

So, its bye then

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That's my way.